is this magic
Somehow I cross my heart I’ve counted for the countless time
trying to put his existence out of my freakishly mind but then, it is me whom
terribly fail. It’s humiliating. Call me lame but its saddening to leave this
school for this year, knowing that he will be no longer studying in this school
for the next year. Am I a little bit exaggerating? Fuck I don’t care. He’s not
that handsome though, plus, he’s short and hahahaha for your information, I
have once passed by him, flabbergasted with his unexpected height, I bursted
out laughing like a sick cow. Believe it or not, he looked at me with an
expression clearly saying that he thought I’m an odd freaking girl whom
suddenly bursted out laughing without any apparent reasons. Thoroughly, I can’t
stop chuckling while rolling like a buffalo remembering those moments. That was
just too hilarious or, maybe not? Fuck I don’t care. At first, I was in the
state of perplexity about my feelings towards him. Indeed, someone told me “I
guess you’re having period everyday huh? Your mood is changing as fuck.” Sorry
guys, I was bewildered back then.
Blame him for having the same personalities with the guy I
profusely admire which is Ljoe. Kkkk you seriously wouldn’t want to know how
much I love that Korean guy. Lol. Well, Ljoe’s one short dwarf guy. Lol. Lol
why can’t I stop giggling?
Usually, when the time comes for us to hear tazkirah after
performing our salaah, I just can’t stop this heart of mine to stop fluttering.
If only I could stop this butterflies-in-my-stomach feeling. I just can’t stop
taking a look at him. I tried hard to restrain my eyes from looking at him but
then, only to find my doe eyes searching for his figure. Some tell me that he’s
been looking at me for the past days and hahahahahaha lol this is so
embarrassing. Fuck I don’t care anymore.
However, I manage to clear out everything when that
bitch-like friend told me once “Aqil, someone you like involved in an accident.
A terrible accident that I’m sure you yourself wouldn’t want to know what it
is.” Being the stupid girl I am, I trusted that fucking bitch words. Damn. Back
then, I was worried sick that I couldn’t stop thinking about him whenever I
have time to use my brain for thinking. Let you roll like a buffalo when that
friend suddenly told me after three days or maybe more? Hmm whatever. She told
me “Aqil, You got it bad bro. You should’ve seen your sinister witch-like face
when I told you that your little crush was involved in an accident. You got it
bad bro. You like him. Oh my god.” And she laughed. SHE FREAKING LAUGHED.
Please, let me kick her ass again. Lol seriously I would never fail to remember
that words. God I wish I could’ve killed her back then.
Since then, I’m conscious about the fact that I may like
him.
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